User blog:Dreamergirl3000/The True Story.....

Hi guys, this is another blog post by me, but i can assure you, this is unlike anything you've ever read before, so if you're not the type for true stories, i advise you don't read this.

So, this is basically the truth, about me. My Name isn't even Ari, i just make it seem that was since i don't want the world to find out about a lot of stuff.

So, i'll start from the top.

My name is Kalel Joson, i'm a 12-year-old girl living in Paranaque city, Philippines, and am curently in 7th grade, or 1st year highschool in my school, the dreamer that will never wake up.

I have 1 brother, Calvin, and a mom and dad, like normal people. The only reason i make my life seem interesting is beacuse its the life i'd rather be living. To me, that world is just as real as this one, and call me crazy, but i'm being serious. I really believe all this stuff, it's what keeps me going through the day, the hopes of one day, talking to my b-daman in hopes of them saying something in reply, or in the hopes of finaly drawing a Buddy Rare card, or feeling that rush when i type or read a new story.

See, my stories and characters aren't just characters, they're a part of me. They are my siblings, hey are the people who know me the most, not my parents, not my brother, not my classmates, but them.

Each one is some sort of piece of me, or multiple pieces, a few of you that you might know are Allisia Vanguard and Keiko Maruhashi, the open romantically-shy one, and the fiery rebel with a soft side. Both are me, and both of them have a story that is similar, they love they're Buddy Monster, and that, in they're world, is against the law, and that's sort of what's going on with me now.

I can't tell a lot of people stuff because of my parents, they always tell everything, and every month, they're giving me his lecture about knowing the boarderline of fantasy and reality when, to me, there is none. Fantasy can become reality if you hope it to be, one way or another. Heck, they began critisizing my dreams. I tell them about a story i like, and they turn it into some sort of lecture on learning. I just want to tell them that i like something, can't they just drop the parent thing till i'm done?

Also, they don't know i have a Wikia account, or a Gmail, because, in truth, i don't trust them. I know they're proud of me, but do they REALLY have to tell EVERYONE about it?!? Have they no knowladge of privacy?

Now, i can't even go a part in a story without lying about something. I can never tell them that these are my stories, or the stories of my online friends, because they would never accept them, they would never accept the real me. I know them, they lecture me too much to want to know what really goes on in my world. My parents claim to want to know, yet they can never stop being what they're best at being, parents.

Sometimes, i just wish they would listen, like Kemura does to Sylph, and i wish i could tell them, but i can't, because they wouldn't understand, they didn't have this stuff growing up, internet and frends that you don't know where the heck they are in the world and all you rely on is trust that you don't get murdered or kidnapped by one of them in the future.

I know this is dangerous, but i trust the people i know on this site, so please, don't destroy my trust for you. I already have too little people i can trust.

So, anyways, yeah. I  can't tell any of my relations what's going on since i don't have anything to tell them that they would understand. I told my mom about a few of my stories as they were really mine, and she just laughed with me, but i could tell, the laugh had a hollow centre, she's not listening at all, she's just humoring me for the sake of a good image or something, but that's how i see it.

I understand that they "love me" or that they "will always be there", but that's all just a lie they tell to little children who are to young to know truth from lie, and all that they're telling me is a big, fat lie.

I could talk to a dragon about this and they would listen, i bet, i mean, so many people i know have called my the Dragon Girl.

Dragons.... Dragons.... sometimes, i think i'm a dragon.

I can be your best friend, or your gratest enemy, or a spy, and i don't really hoard, but i keep all of my thoughs a secret from my family, they are my armor, as the gems and metal nuggets stick to the underbelly of the dragon to protect it's weak spot, the lies and stories I make protect my weak spots.

I must admit, i have many, but don't view me as a weak girl, or change your oppinion about me, this is all merely half of who i am. The girl you chat with on the Buddyfight chat is still me, only with a different name that i am actually called even in school quite a lot by close friends who do in fact know my real name.

I am delusional, yes, but that's what makes me who i am, the delusional dreamer living in 2 worlds, one of possible insanity and a completely normal one, but the thing is, deciding which is which.

Reality can be crazy, and yet, so can a dream world, and yet, each somewhat grant relief.

In the dream world, i can be who i am without fear, and in the real world, i can be who i am and tell real people about it, people who can relate.

I know it sounds sappy, but that's what's really going on with me, so i guess, every time i get confused with a chat topic, that's only part of how confused i am with real life.

Don't get me wrong, i love my life, and i wouldn't give it up for anything, but sometimes, i question who i really am, what the world around me really means.

Does it mean i can see clearly?

Does it mean i've finally lost it?

Or does it mean that i'm somewhere, sandwiched in between?

I bet if i asked Dynamis, he would know.

Yeah, up until now, i dream about him, it's another weaness of mine, like Allisia, getting shy over love even if it's all i've written or read or something or other.

Ari.....Aurora....Allisia.....Keiko.... These are all names that i've made for myself over the coarse of my life, call me any one, i don't care, it's fine, since they're all aspects of me anyways.

So yeah, that's me, the Dreamer Girl who's never woken up.